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the last time I wrote something here
there was nothing but rage and dark and hate and twisting sadness that
spiralled down into the core of my being
and I miss that now
I feel calmer but I don't feel wiser
I was fucked up but now I'm just injured
I was angry but now all I have left is fear because
I got over all of that anger and alchemized it into something more harmful
these deep things I used to feel are gone and I miss them
I can't even feel passion in the words I type there's just nothing as dark as depression and I fucking loved
I loved
So deeply
and I loved to sit in that darkness
and fester
and feel
and ache
because it was better
than
nothing
at
all
there was nothing but rage and dark and hate and twisting sadness that
spiralled down into the core of my being
and I miss that now
I feel calmer but I don't feel wiser
I was fucked up but now I'm just injured
I was angry but now all I have left is fear because
I got over all of that anger and alchemized it into something more harmful
these deep things I used to feel are gone and I miss them
I can't even feel passion in the words I type there's just nothing as dark as depression and I fucking loved
I loved
So deeply
and I loved to sit in that darkness
and fester
and feel
and ache
because it was better
than
nothing
at
all
Hi Again.
If anyone's worried about me, they shouldn't be. I've had a lot on my plate lately, I've been barely drawing at all. This is my final year in high school, and although I try, I struggle a lot, even in lower level classes. My family has been eating eachother alive, and my financial situation isn't much better than it was before. But don't worry. I'm not gone from DA forever, just taking a long, long break. I can't remember if I owe anyone commissions. But if I do, I'm sorry. I have a list somewhere. I'm still going to finish it. Just not right now, and probably not for another year or so. In the meantime, I hope all of my friends that I haven'
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Today I think I found out
What it means to grow up
It means you can truly be alone .
When you're young, your parents will
clothe you, feed you and make sure
you have friends
Growing up means
you have to do
all of that
yourself
(Growing up sometimes means
realizing that you
can't)
And the reality is,
most
of the people who walk out of
your life
will never come back .
Again just what
So throw your knives, make sure they miss,
Pull me in for another deadly kiss,
Black as the war paint on your face,
Don't forget me when the battle paints you red,
Never to be seen again.
And you, You like to pretend you're damaged.
Finally need a label when you get passed over so many times
Something that makes them stop and assess your brain
Wonder how you tick, there's your attention again
Look at you, you're a failing mess.
A wilted flower, mud dragged dress.
And you can't even do what's best
and step the fuck down, because you're bathed in red
You're the sugar pill, in a bottle of ice
you're bitter as fuck and they all kn
Wow what
I can hear them, they're breathing. They snicker and wail at me, screaming.
They're childish, they don't know anything.
But they know everything I know and want to know.
Can I really call them wrong?
Can I really call them evil?
If they're something that's inside of me,
Am I evil like them, too?
Am I twisted like their words?
I've got scissors for hands, and ice for breath.
Hurts to breathe, and I'm scared to touch.
And I've let slip a terrible thing, my dear.
I sometimes forget and the words I hear
become the reality I hold, so near
And you may be a little crazy,
But I'm worse than you.
I can hear them, they're breeding,
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