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the last time I wrote something here
there was nothing but rage and dark and hate and twisting sadness that 
spiralled down into the core of my being 

and I miss that now 

I feel calmer but I don't feel wiser 
I was fucked up but now I'm just injured 
I was angry but now all I have left is fear because 
I got over all of that anger and alchemized it into something more harmful

these deep things I used to feel are gone and I miss them
I can't even feel passion in the words I type there's just nothing as dark as depression and I fucking loved

I loved
So deeply

and I loved to sit in that darkness 
and fester
and feel
and ache
because it was better
than
nothing
at
all
If anyone's worried about me, they shouldn't be. I've had a lot on my plate lately, I've been barely drawing at all. This is my final year in high school, and although I try, I struggle a lot, even in lower level classes. My family has been eating eachother alive, and my financial situation isn't much better than it was before. But don't worry. I'm not gone from DA forever, just taking a long, long break. I can't remember if I owe anyone commissions. But if I do, I'm sorry. I have a list somewhere. I'm still going to finish it. Just not right now, and probably not for another year or so. In the meantime, I hope all of my friends that I haven't talked to in a long time are all okay, and that you all have a great 2015. Thanks for all the memories you guys. I think about you all the time.

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ButteryFoxWhiskers Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2014  Student Writer
musey baby sweetie i love you
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Miss-Mafia Featured By Owner Aug 26, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
<333
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KiRAWRa Featured By Owner Jul 26, 2014
Thanks very much for the watch, I really appreciate it C: ♥
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Miss-Mafia Featured By Owner Jul 27, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw no problem, your art is on point, I'm in love with your style :3 
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Masqeh Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy birthday, gal! Been a long while since we spoke, but I hope all is well! Have a good day!
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Miss-Mafia Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aaaaaaaaa thank you ;-; I haven't been on dA for such a long time, I didn't even see this. Thank you so much! :heart: :heart:
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Matriarch-Amaterasu Featured By Owner Jan 5, 2014
Happy Birthday!
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Miss-Mafia Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Aw omg thank you- I feel awful I haven't been on dA for so long!
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Matriarch-Amaterasu Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2014
No problem at all! That's alright, we all have moments like that c:
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Miss-Mafia Featured By Owner Mar 23, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Yes, unfortunately I haven't done much digital since I felt like my traditional was falling behind u-u;
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